Ribbon Thoughts

A few years ago, I was introduced to ribbon thoughts. Or rather, I put a name on them. Ribbon thoughts are like kite tails that unfurl and go absolutely nowhere. But there are thousands of them, all dancing in the wind, waiting for you to try to follow them.

Today is a day of ribbon thoughts.

  • I’m over my OCW angst. For those of you who actually know what that means, I’ll still figure out a way to see you all. Probably smuggled Skype dates in the middle of sessions. Just as long as it doesn’t interfere with agent hunting.
  • Something incredibly humbling happened tonight. I locked the keys to my beloved car inside my car. In my haste to get out and get on with life, I left them dangling in the ignition, the mace bumping into the British pewter knight. I called AAA, called my roommate, called the other girls from work, and had one of them skype whoever was online and see if they wanted to party in the grocery store parking lot while I waited for a mechanic to come and pop the lock. I don’t mind being in a jam. I don’t even mind being in them by myself. A cool head and prayer will get you through most anything.  But I figured that in this case, I should make the exception. There’s no way you can build community if you don’t let yourself be vulnerable. You have to show your dumb side as well as your smart-alec side. Two of my coworkers showed up to cheer me up in the parking lot. That was humbling – would I have done the same? Would I really?  I’m a terribly flawed person. I’m broken. I don’t live up to my potential. I can’t.
  • I heard a sermon on sin nature this morning and it made me mad. The preacher was cold and sounded like he was trying to sell you a product like insurance, telling you all the reasons why you couldn’t be good. He sounded so gleeful as he damned people. I don’t think that’s how Jesus wanted it to be.
  • Sleeping in is not conducive to getting up early the next morning. It just makes you wide awake in the middle of the night and the cycle begins.
  • I really need to learn to shut my mouth. Especially when I am tired.
  • Value every second you have with a person. Because one day they’ll be gone and you’ll be left with a gaping hole in your heart.
  • I’ve had bleach blonde hair, dark blonde, dark brown, light brown, red, and strawberry blonde hair in the last seven months. I’m starting to really miss the bleach blonde. And I feel shallow for even thinking about it.

That’s about it for tonight. I need to sleep.


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